THE CALL!
Shortly after starting my dream job as children’s director I had the amazing opportunity to attend ONE a conversation with senior, youth and children’s leaders at NewSpring Church. During one of the sessions Perry Noble was speaking I heard him say something to the affect of ”you always have to go back to when you were called”.
I truly had no idea what he meant at the time. In my mind there was nothing that could ever make me doubt the call. It made no sense to me. I was two months into it and even though I had already experienced some hard times, I was still living a dream!
It wasn’t until one day when I was home with a sick child, feeling the weight of the world, crying out to God “I don’t know how to do this! Are you sure I did the right thing? Are you sure I’m the one to do this?” that I understood. In that moment, as if he were standing in the room with me, I heard Perry Noble’s saying “You have to go back to where you were called!”
As tears streamed down my face, I ran upstairs, pulled out the journal I had written in the night God began to speak to me about this call. I read it over, and over, and over again. It didn’t make the struggle I was facing go away. It didn’t even completely change my perspective. I still didn’t have any idea how to do this task He had set before me, but it did reassure me to know this wasn’t my plan, it was God’s.
See, the reality is, if I had taken this job just because I thought it was the right thing to do, that wouldn’t have been enough. When the rubber met the road there had to be more holding it on course than “I thought it was a good idea”! I make mistakes. I make them a lot, actually! If all that had been holding this together was what I thought, in that moment, my thought would have been “I made a terrible mistake!” What kept me going, what will continue to keep my going, what determines what I do – should always be The Call of God! Today I understand and I’m grateful that I have that place – the place I know God called me!
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