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God's Plan – Part 2

So for an entire week.  I paced and prayed.  It had to be the longest week of my life!  I believed in my heart this was God’s plan, but also knew if I was wrong, it would be OK.  I mean I couldn’t get upset since only a few months later I had said I didn’t want that job! 

Finally the day arrived.  We dropped the kids off at Bryan and Jen’s house with the babysitter and we rode over to On The Border.  We all tried to be casual and well….beat around the bush, but we all knew this was more than dinner.  See I have known Bryan and Jen since high school and since we have had children we have only gone out to eat as couples twice (I think) without kids. 

After a while Bryan finally spoke up with ” I need to ask you something”  He did a lot of talking and I heard most of what he said.  It was really loud, and I hadn’t had my meds…and I think he wasn’t talking very loud either!  Anyway, he asked me about taking Jennifer’s place.  He told us to pray about it and let him know.  If I hadn’t been afraid he would think I wasn’t spiritual enough I would have said, “Absolutely, 100% YES!”  right there.  But since he kept telling me to pray about it and for Johnny and I to talk about it.  I decided the prudent answer would simply be “OK…” with some added information about what had been going on in my heart.

So after dinner we went back and picked up the kids, headed home and talked and prayed and within an hour or so..I sent him an email that said “Yes!”  And the journey began….

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God's Plan

Back in January 08, the Lord asked me “Will you teach one more year?”  My answer “Sure God, I can do anything for one more year!”  This discussion with the Lord had come after many months (years) of wrestling with God about what I was called to do.  I loved what I was doing, but never felt complete…like I had found my place.

A little over a year ago, when the announcement was made that Pastor Bryan would be senior pastor in August, a friend began asking me questions.  Questions like “What do you think Jennifer will do about Kid’s Rock?  and then followed that question with “I think you’d be great at that job.” 

First of all, my response to her first question was “she’ll continue to do Kid’s Rock” and then I responded by laughing and mumbling as I walked out of her door “No way, I don’t want that job!”  That comment wasn’t one of those comments that you make sometimes because you don’t want anyone to know what you are really thinking or feeling.  I meant what I said – it was really  not in my heart.  The truth was I had no idea what was deep in my heart, just that what I was doing wasn’t it!  I knew I was called to ministry, but didn’t know what that would look like and honestly didn’t care.  I had just reached a place where I was determined whatever God had for me, I wanted it and I wanted to pursue it with everything within me.

So what changed?  God got to my heart!  He began to orchestrate things in my life to make me aware that change was coming.  He began to strategically plant me in Kid’s Rock leading worship a couple of times Jennifer couldn’t.  Still I didn’t see it coming…I knew something was changing in my heart.  I knew something was changing in what God was calling me to do at church, but I was still clueless as to what it all meant. 

Sometime last November, God really began giving me ideas and dreams for kid’s ministry.  Things at school were crazy but that’s all I would think about on the way to school was the ideas God was giving me for Kid’s Rock.  I kept arguing with God simply because I didn’t think I could juggle another thing.  Then on December 10th, as I was going to meet my husband for his birthday dinner, Jennifer sent me a message.  They wanted to get together for dinner sometime the next week.  Instantly, something instead of me leaped.  I knew what was coming.

I went to dinner and kept asking Johnny “So what do you think it’s about?”  He was coming up with some pretty random stuff so I started thinking I was just crazy.  After what seemed like forever we got home and he finally asked me what I thought it was about….I finally got up enough nerve to tell him.  His response “of course, I didn’t think of that!” 

Stay tuned…

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